Hindsight

It is unbelievable to think of how 2015 is half way over. It seems the older one becomes, the faster time passes by. Every year around this time, I reflect back on my past experiences, and evaluate where I am in the present. So, why do I pick this time of the year to reflect back on my life? Well, that is easy to answer. Around this time 13 years ago, I was facing a hard, long journey; the walk through blindness.
Let it be said, blindness or not, I am a goal oriented person, and I do not let my circumstances stop me from living my life. During my self evaluation, I ask myself, How far along in the process have I come to conquering my goals? As a natural part of development, it is important to have continual growth, which is done through in-depth self awareness.
Yesterday evening, I was having a conversation with someone about how I struggled with comparing myself to others, especially when I was in school. Particularly, I measured my success in accordance to other blind individuals. I felt like I did not live up to the expectations of what it meant to be a “model” representation of the blind community. Walking into a classroom, where I was the only student who was blind, I felt the pressure to set a positive example. But, the fact of the matter is, I am not a representation of a sole group. I am a representation of myself, Robin. I am not a blind person, but instead, a person who happens to be blind.
So, the person to whom I was talking to asked, how have things changed over the years? what is different? The answer is growth. I do not let others expectations of what I should and shouldn’t be weigh me down anymore. It is like Mark Twain said, “Comparison is the death of joy.” I define who I am, not others. What about you?

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